why should i always be the one who starts a conversation?
why should i always be the one who tries to salvage a bad situation?
why should i always be the one taking the intiative?

isn't life simply about giving and taking?
i don't see any reason for me to be the one always having to DEGRADE myself.
feel so stupid.
feel like an absolute fool.

anyways, school ended pretty fast today and i finished at 12.10pm!
and now, i'm waiting for sf and est to finish school and we'll be meeting up!
yayyy.
really happy. been a real long time since i last met them. =)

oh and i remembered something ruilong said to me today.
i must learn to be "guai".
hmm. am i really that bad?
i'm already trying my best not to flare up already.
that is why...
icantbebotheredandidontwannacareanymore.