i'm on the verge of breaking down...
i've not felt like this before for the past 17 years.
i've always thought i could handle things well,
even if it's affairs of the heart.
but now, i know i'm defeated.
i don't know what i want.
i cried myself to sleep last night but i still had no answers.
i don't want to end up in regrets.
i don't want to be accused of being indecisive.
i don't want to hurt anyone.
i want to find a perfect solution that will leave everyone happy.
can anyone tell me what it is?
i no longer can search my brain for answers.
i feel like running away from everything.
i don't want to face up to reality.
but yet, i do not want to be seen as a coward.
this is hard, but i know i have to do something.
and i hope i'll be enlightened soon.