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Sunday, May 29, 2005


didn't have the time to blog these few days.
had been super busy with the preparations of Musica Del Corazon.
now that it has beautifully ended, i feel lighter.
the concert was a total success though there were a few teeny weeny flops that the audience did not and will not notice. :)
i did not play a single wrong note for First Love.
me and serene's voice did not crack at all whilst singing Guan Huai Fang Shi.
amelia's solo for Guan Huai Fang Shi was fantastic.
i enjoyed most of the concert and was super duper happy when the night ended so perfectly.
me and renny were so worried at first cuz we saw how slowly the auditorium was being filled up.
but after that, we realised that most of the people came pretty late.
this was the first time i did not freak out entirely while performing.
i was at ease.
and it feels good. :)

wanna thank Adam (the male emcee for the night) for agreeing to help me out. :)
my beloved girlfriends: Est (my bimbo), Jos & pH (both my dearies) for coming down!
to meifang, fiona and guanhui: you three are the best liao. :) so patient (cuz they waited for me for so long after the concert!) and so sweet. :)
thanks for the flowers (and i know that they are real!)
the concert wouldn't have been a success without all these special people including the MRC guys, the photographers, the ushers and the logistic members! :)
thanks to all.

| Jasmin posted at 2:36 PM | 0 comments

Thursday, May 26, 2005

tomorrow's the day.

may the force be with ME.

| Jasmin posted at 9:03 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, May 22, 2005

it feels good...

when you go shopping with a good friend.

when you know you can just trust the person whom you're with.

when you and a friend do silly things together.

when your eyebrows look pretty.

when your handphone looks cute.

when nice neoprints are taken.

to be able to feel good.

| Jasmin posted at 10:31 PM | 0 comments

Friday, May 20, 2005

i wanna be stress-free.

today had physics and maths test.
think i'm gonna fail both of them
i don't care.
i only studied a little for phyiscs and gave up maths completely.
boy, am i glad that this day is soon gonna be over!
this is like the toughest week so far.
did not even had time to catch a breather.
anyways, this week's gonna be over soon too! :)
next week will be more relaxed though it's the concert on Saturday.
not really looking forward to it unlike last year. :(

| Jasmin posted at 8:42 PM | 0 comments

Thursday, May 19, 2005


went to the pasar malam near school just now with fiona, yixin and guanhui and i bought so much food la.
so zhu.
but thats my lunch le ma! hah.
me, yixin and guanhui like kiasu (or maybe i'm more) cuz we saw really nice wrappers going at only 10cents per piece.
so naturally, we started choosing la.
lols. and i bought like ten pieces. heh. so nice!
tmr got physics and maths test!!! argh.
i must start mugging!

| Jasmin posted at 3:04 PM | 0 comments

Wednesday, May 18, 2005


had another college day rehearsal today.
it wasn't fantastic and we wasted so much of our precious time which could have been put to much better use.
guitar practice resumed after that and i was so tired.
but i could see that everyone else was drained too.
had a long and tiring day... i just want my bed!
oh. my sis went for a holiday to genting with her friends.
although it's only genting, i'm still so jealous that she could just get away like that.
having maths and physics test this coming friday.
sad to say, i've not touched anything at all.
this whole week is probably gonna be the toughest week around.
i know i'm gonna get over this.

| Jasmin posted at 9:46 PM | 0 comments

Monday, May 16, 2005


the concert's coming.
everything's not prepared.
today's rehearsal was a total flop.
the concert's on May 27th.
today's already the 16th.
i really got no idea how things are all gonna work themselves out within 2 rehearsals.
i can't take it anymore.
i can't breathe.
i probably suck at time management.

| Jasmin posted at 10:53 PM | 0 comments

Saturday, May 14, 2005

a long way to go...

had tuition early in the morning at 9am today.
woke up grumpily obviously.
went to meet aaron after that for lunch at fish & co. and we caught Kindom of Heaven!
it was so good. i love it.
oh. and orlando bloom looks so suave! (as usual.)
anyways, he stormed off again.

| Jasmin posted at 8:43 PM | 0 comments

Friday, May 13, 2005

a long way to perfection.

today was the College Day rehearsal again.
had three runs altogether and every single one sucked.
the guitar is not the type of instrument that can produce super duper loud music like the band or the chinese orchestra.
it's a STRING instrument for god's sake.
and it's pure common sense that mikes are definitely needed or we are as good as a silent ensemble.
i wondered what was going through the teachers' minds when they couldn't hear a thing from us.
is this ensemble playing silent music?
are you sure this is the ensemble that got gold for SYF?
HEH. maybe i'm too paranoid myself.
but its simply because i just cannot see any effort put in by ANYBODY down the stage who bothered to help us with the microphones.
whatever. i can't be bothered, really.
i just wanna get this over and done with.
Guitar Night is on May 27th which is like only two weeks away from now.
we haven't even got the basic infrastructure ready yet.
there are so many things that require planning and organisation but right now, nobody has the time to do anything at all.
we are all too hard pressed for time ourselves.
next week's gonna be hell for me.
packed with all the College Day rehearsals cum Guitar Night rehearsals, i really don't know where i'm gonna find time to study.
getting worried for myself already. boo.
i got so stressed up today.
so many things were going on at the same time.
us waiting for our turn to go up on stage for the College Day rehearsal, me having to consolidate the list of ushers to help out on Guitar Night when i can't even find enough ushers? and i still have to get ready the list of the amount of foods and who eats what which has to be consolidated (by me, again) soon cuz Mr. Tan's gonna order soon as these foods are gonna be our dinners on Guitar Night.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i feel like screaming out loud.
so many things to do.
so many deadlines to meet.
so many tests to study for.
yet so little time.

| Jasmin posted at 9:24 PM | 0 comments

Wednesday, May 11, 2005


i'm tired.
damn tired.
bleah. just came home from guitar.
today was the first college day rehearsal but they were mainly working on the transition only. so we didn't need to play anything at all.
and i'm finally saying BYEBYE to nafa.
heh heh heh.
yayyyy. my whole aim throughout this time's nafa is to get exempted from the single period PE on mondays and that is to get at least a SILVER.
but now i'm suffering from the aftermath of the 5 stations.
my thighs and legs are aching like nobody's business.
anyways, i feel kinda stressed up recently.
i hardly am like that.
as in, i don't get stressed up that easily. serious.
but this time round.... hmmm.
i think i know what's bothering me.
it's really dumb.
it's none other than the irritating PHYSICS TOPIC: ANALOGUE ELECTRONICS.
dammit. i just don't seem to understand it.
for other topics, even if i don't pay attention during the lecture or even if i skip the lecture, i'd still be able to figure it out by myself either by reading the notes or reading through my textbook.
mr. yeo was really nice to teach us that topic today during the double period physics and i did understand some of the things he was talking about.
but when i come to face the tutorials, i just don't seem to understand them.
bleahhhhh. never mind. i'm gonna attempt them again. and if i still can't make it, i'll move on to ideal gases. (finally)
i feel like sleeping. soon.

| Jasmin posted at 9:52 PM | 0 comments

Monday, May 09, 2005

Sea Carnival (heats)

finally had the dragonboat heats today...
it was quite enjoyable i guess.
although we weren't exactly super co-ordinated as a team, i believe that we had did our best and since this is what we achieved together, it's still superb though we came in third. :)
oh! and we had our 2.4km test today! argh.
wasn't mentally nor physically prepared at all la. boo.
but it's alright i guess cuz all i aim is to get exempted from the single PE period on mondays. HAH.
anyways, i felt a little happier right now.
we sms-ed from about 5+pm as soon as i reached home from the heats all the way till 8+pm. heh.
i guess everything's my fault.
not him.
if only i was more understanding.
if only i had treated him better.
if only i hadn't taken him for granted.
hehs. anyways, all these "if onlys" are of no use already and all i hope is to get an answer from myself on May 27th and i shall see how things go i guess. :)
he does not have as much faith as he used to have in me in the past already.
i guess i made him feel insecure and unsure, thats why.
but i told him i'm gonna make him regain the faith he has in me no matter what happens. and i really hope that'll happen...
got no idea how am i gonna go about doing it. but, i'm sure i can do it. :)
i want my bed! really drained out...

| Jasmin posted at 10:03 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, May 08, 2005

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| Jasmin posted at 8:24 PM | 0 comments

Happy Mother's Day. :)

thanks mom for everything you've did for me.
really appreciate it. :)
i love you.

| Jasmin posted at 6:19 PM | 0 comments

Saturday, May 07, 2005

tsk tsk.

wanted to blog last night but i was soooo tired i just plopped right away after i took my bath.
yesterday was tpjc's sports meet and 04S20 was really A.A. la.
can't stand myself either. hah. but i still love my jersey! :)
it's striking orange and black by the way.
anyways, it felt good to see the whole class wear the jersey together.
looks damn "sud" ok. haha.
anyways, don't know what's wrong with us. all the events we participated came in fourth la. heh.
but still, we did our best already and it's really fantastic seeing orangies running around the track.
went home after sports meet to watch 2 episodes of At The Dolphin Bay and had to meet bimbo at 5+pm to go for tpjc's SongFest Let's Jam!
it was so scary la i tell u.
everyone was like crowding outside the audi. waiting for their turns to enter and there were sooooo many people.
it was full house yesterday i tell ya.
i also realised that there were alot of people who could sing so well in tp.
especially my classmate, Faisal, who's always speaking so softly to me.
he amazed me last night by his: "If you wanna hear us sing, SCREAM!"
and his voice was so damn solid. so different from his usual murmurings in class and guitar.
he sounded exactly like those rock bands' lead singers. *THUMBS UP!*
anyways, the concert was quite good, really entertaining. :)
ohhh. and i had fun with bimbo of course. :)
we went to cartel after the concert to have our dinner. (yea. dinner at 10pm? hah.)
it always feels superb to just sit there and chit chat with her like nobody's business.

now... more about today.
had tuition early in the morning (as usual) today and i left earlier than both of them.
felt good to WALK OUT on them. HEH.
do i sound like a sadist? hmmm.
i don't know. or maybe not them. just him.
it doesn't feel totally good actually.
i was just getting upset all over again that's why i rushed through the work i was supposed to finish up and left by myself after i was done.
i just couldn't stand being in the same place as him, sitting next to him and watching him sms-ing that someone so frequently. but i realised he wasn't the one who made the first move. heh. whatever. i ain't bothered.
no. i am bothered.
but.. before i get myself really bothered, i gotta make a decision real quick.
i'm just awaiting for May 27th.

| Jasmin posted at 9:14 PM | 0 comments

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

bruised and battered.

we had sexuality education in school again today.
discussed about a guy breaking up with a girl and whether the girl should beg him to come back and whether the girl should accept the guy (or not) if he wants her back sometime later.
hmmm. quite a topic eh.
all my girlfriends think that girls in the 21st century should have a whole lot of dignity and we can survive pretty well (or maybe even better) without those stupid guys.
anyways, went to eat fish & co with fiona after school today!!! *grins*
the taste of dory is still lingerin' in my mouth. mmmm.
i gotta make myself start studying.
i don't know how but i'm going to get my books out. :)
oh. we kept exchanging glances in class today.
i know he's looking at me.
and he knows i'm looking at him.
we are both in pain.
great pain, in fact.
i can see it from his eyes.
though we didn't communicate, i can still feel it.
it's there. still.

| Jasmin posted at 5:08 PM | 0 comments

Monday, May 02, 2005

almost there.

enjoyed myself slacking at home today. :)
finally went down to collect my new pair of contacts!
clarity is the word now. :)
few days back, i had to SQUINT (to fiona: if you're reading this, does it reminds you of something? Heh.) everywhere cuz my left eye's contacts' axis was gone! i could only depend on my right eye's. heh.
yayyyy. i'm saying bye to the blurry days. =p
kind of dreading school tomorrow.
though i end pretty early tomorrow... i ain't looking forward to anything at all.
i want people to make me happy!

| Jasmin posted at 9:32 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, May 01, 2005


just got home after having a buffet dinner at some hotel (i ain't sure where... heh.) and i ate like a p i g laaaa.
kept popping foods into my mouth non-stop.
(ooh! i love the crayfish.)
anyways, it was nice eating with everybody from mama's side. :)
hmmm. wondering if i should go for tuition tomorrow... it's not really a tuition session... but more of a guiding session. i go there do my work and if i meet any problems, my tutor will be there to guide me. geddit?
guess i'l just see my mood tomorrow. :)
ohhh. and i'm recently in love with Delta Goodrem Feat. Brian McFadden's Almost Here. :)
though this song has been around for a pretty long time, i took notice of it only like now... heh.
i thought the lyrics are really interesting. :)

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

| Jasmin posted at 11:02 PM | 0 comments